Friday, May 14, 2010

Throughout this year we have been taking classes at Fellowship and the last one was called "Survey of Theology". Pretty much we covered major topics of the Christian faith and took short looks at each of them. At the end of the class, we had to write a paper about a theological topic or issue we wanted to research deeply and draw conclusions about what it means for us. Below is the paper I wrote. Mostly it sums up a lot of what is going on in my life right now as my internship year comes to an end and I begin moving forward. I have never before faced this season of my life, and I know it's not the last time, but I love the fact that I can rest assured in the God who walks not only beside me, but in front of me.

Survey of Theology- Theological Project

Knowing the God who is before

As this class ends, I find myself on the end of the residency program this year. Two days away from everything I have come to know is coming to a close and changing. Up until this point in my life, I have always had a plan, knowledge of the “next step” or at minimal a “to-do” list for the day. I like order, organization and initiating so I can guarantee things to happen. Some people find change, new or uncertainty exciting, thrilling and fun; however, I happen to not be one of those people. So with the reality of no plan in front of me, I must choose how to believe, respond and live. Throughout this year, whether in study, church, circumstance, or conversations, I have been taught that God is before all things.[1] Now, I realize I must stand and claim this truth amidst every circumstance, question of the future, decision, etc. That’s why I am choosing to understand and research the theological issue of God being before me.

In order to do this, I first have to understand, at least in some capacity the character and nature of God. One incommunicable attribute of God is His unchangeableness. Wayne Grudem describes this characteristic as, “God being unchanging in his being, perfections, purposes, and promises, yet does act and feel emotions, and he acts and feels differently in response to different situations.”[2] Multiple times in scripture God is described as being unchanging, the same, in His being, purposes, and promises.[3] Believing this truth of God brings great comfort in times of uncertainty when it is paired with the truth of scripture, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”[4] God is unchanging in His purposes, which include His purposes for me. Which leads me to believe and see that God is before me, using everything to accomplish His purposes of His glory and my good. The importance of this truth allows me to trust God despite circumstances, change or anything else. My faith and hope and knowledge of God depend on His infinite worth of my trust, and because He never changes, then I know that before each step I take, decision I make, or future situation, God already goes there.

Another attribute of God, which is communicable, that helps in the understanding of God being before me is His knowledge, or omniscience. This can be described as God fully knowing Himself and all things actual and possible in one simple and eternal act.[5] Going further, this would be that God has known all things that would happen and all things that He would do forever. Nothing was before God, He created, He was, no beginning; so He has always been before, always been all knowing and always will be.[6] He initiated creation, He initiated redemption and He continues to initiate as I walk with Him through life. [7] Because He knew, He initiated so I was able to then respond. Responding in faith to the gospel, responding in obedience to the Spirit and continuing to respond as He leads me in His purposes and plans. Although they are not always clear in my human perspective, my faith stands on His knowledge and not my own.[8] He is before me, His knowledge (in full) before mine, and so I walk in faith trusting in His knowledge and purposes that He reveals in scripture.

As I study and see these characteristics of God, I also see in scripture many examples of God claiming to go before His people or a declaration of that truth.[9] These examples show us the nature of God’s character and the promises to all who believe. It’s His character and His promises that I am able to take courage in as I pursue Him for the future. Even if I have no tangible plan at this point in time, I believe and hold fast to the truth of His character that He is already going there, preparing a way and will be a light to my feet.[10]

Alongside of the promise, there comes a command. In Psalm 16:8 David states, “I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.” David chooses to set the Lord before Him. David gives God the rightful spot that He is due; puts Him where He already claims to be. Jesus also commands something similar in Matthew 6:33, “Seek the Kingdom of God above all else…” Before everything, He says, seek God and His Kingdom. As a Christian, I am called to not only rely on the character and promises of God but to seek the Lord, who is before me, and set Him to have Lordship over every part of my life.

Interesting that as we look at Colossians 1:17, “He is before all things,” if we go one verse back, Colossians 1:16 states, “all things were created through him and for him.” This puts into perspective why anything and everything happens in existence, including that in my life. With a plan, without a plan, moving forward or waiting, wherever I find myself, it is for Christ. All of it exists for Christ and to make His glories known.[11] His glory is the purpose of all things, and so now as I find myself in a position of uncertainty, I recognize it is for the glory of Christ. His character, attributes, promises and commands all are a part of His glory, which I am able to take part in as I seek Him, where He is, before all things.



[1] Colossians 1:17

[2] Bible Doctrine: Essential Teachings to the Christian Faith. Wayne Grudem. Page 73

[3] Psalm 102:27, Hebrews 13:8, Malachi 3:6

[4] Romans 8:28

[5] see note 2, Page 88

[6] Genesis 1:1, John 1:1-3

[7] John 6:44

[8] Isaiah 55:9

[9] Deuteronomy 1:30, Psalm 59:10, Isaiah 52:12

[10] Psalm 119: 105

[11] John Piper Sermon: All things were created through him and for him.


Blessings!!!

I pray you know the God who is before you.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Got back from our spring break mission trip to Memphis on Friday. Such an amazing week, and plan to update more about what I learned, think, am excited about & all that happened soon.

However, I did want to share my team's recent GLEE performance with everyone. It was mostly for a "fun" element with really no purpose other than getting kids excited & enjoying ourselves putting it together. See the link below, and ENJOY!


PRAISE BE TO THE GOD WHO ALL GOOD THINGS COME.

Monday, March 15, 2010

My best friend is getting married!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A lot of my life is changing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& im pretty terrified.

but i take courage in the Lord...I cast my cares upon Him, knowing He is faithful & will do it. Whatever IT may be.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Ash came & she went. It was such a blessing to have a piece of "home" enter into my new life for a few days. It's so weird that one of the people who was my everyday normal has now become an event of the month because it's so rare that I get to see her.

Friendship is funny. Looking back over the years we have known each other & having been through so much, it's so wonderful to continue to share a friendship that is not separated by distance. Even as I write this & think on it, it's amazing to me that God calls us His friends when we are in Christ. I appreciate so much the truth that my friends, both near & far, new & longtime, were made to reflect the relationship that is offered to us by Jesus. Just small glimpses of His glory & yet friendships create such a joy and peace that is unexplainable.
Having her here, immersing her in my new norm, gave me such a comfort and blessed feeling that can only be a gift from God.

Thanks Ash for being in my life, being my friend through the years & supporting me in this new season of my life. It points me straight to the arms of our Savior and that is the greatest blessing of all. You are loved, appreciated and valued beyond measure :)

I hope everyone has friends such as mine, because they are truly the greatest!

**1 John 4:7**
Dear friends, let us love one another, for love COMES FROM GOD. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

http://www.mosaicstudentsnwa.blogspot.com/

This is our Student Ministry blog that I have never posted. I recently was in charge of the newest blog post "How do I as a Christian overcome sexual temptation?"...interesting.

But besides that, it's also just another way to see what is going on in my life & ministry as we seek as a team to invest in students and families for the eternal. We desire to make Him great...& I hope anything that you check into challenges, encourages & enlightens your heart into deeper understanding of the God who created & loves you.

Blessings in this Valentines season :)

Monday, January 11, 2010

So I just threw myself a dance party in my room for the first time in years. Sounds weird and awkward that I would admit to that out loud let alone on my blog, but it gave me some perspective that I thought to share.

As I was dancing, I felt so free, unable to stop smiling (probably at how ridiculous I looked) but really not caring about anything. Just freeing my mind, body & spirit to feel the freedom that is offered to me in everyday. Our lives should be no different than this dance party because of the gift that Christ offers to us in the cross. He died to bring us freedom, to show us the Truth; the promise that if we claim it, believe it, we can know true unhindered freedom. It's such a wonderful gift, an unspeakable blessing of love that surpasses knowledge. In Christ, WE ARE FREE. Free from worry, bondage of sin, expectations of others, finding our worth in something other than who He claims us to be. I am so thankful for this gift of freedom, I just wish I was constantly aware & meditating on it so I could have dance parties in my heart all of the time. Life is suppose to be fun, a fun adventure of meeting, knowing, seeking, loving and worshipping God.

So my challenge: Have a dance party and realize that God has come to set you free so that your life could reflect His promises to the world. And recognize that it brings Him to joy that your heart would dance in His presence.

Psalm 30:11-12
You turned my wailing into dancing;
you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy
that my heart would sing to you and not be silent,
O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

This past weekend I was able to be a part of something great. It was called Help Portrait. It started with one guy & became an international movement of photographers coming together, giving up a day & taking pictures for families who otherwise could not afford them. I literally went to bed that night exhausted from the amount of blessing & just pure joy that I was able to experience through just talking, serving and loving people. Although I was not a photographer, they asked for volunteers to assist with all other kind of needs...so I helped with make up :)
I attached some links below so you can check out what it was all about & some stories that made the news. I hope you are blessed through just hearing about it!

http://www.help-portrait.com/

http://www.ireport.com/docs/DOC-368249

http://www.4029tv.com/news/21952248/detail.html

My wisdom to bestow on you is this...serve & love people all of the time, not just events or opportunities that bring forth the need for it. People are always in need of service & love; & honestly you will become the one more changed. God will use others to change you & ultimately it shows you more about who He is.

Blessings during this season! May your eyes & heart be fixed on that which truly matters.